혹시나, 만약

만약, 만일

  - 있을지도 모르는 뜻밖의 경우

 

혹시나

  - 그럴 리가  없겠지만 만의 하나라도

 

행여나

  - 그럴 리야 없겠지만 그래도

 

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있을지도 모르는 게 아니라,

It's not that it could happen,

It's not about whether it might happen,

It's not the question of mere possibility,

 

그럴 리 없는 걸 알면서도 망설인다.

I know it's impossible, but I still hesitate.

Even though I know it cannot be true, I hesitate.

Full aware of its impossibility, I nevertheless hesitate.

 

이름 한 줄 삭제하는 것 뿐인데 '못하겠어.' '될까?'란 마음이 그림자처럼 길게 늘어진다.

It's just deleting one line of a name, but thoughts like 'I can't' or 'Will it work?' hang over me like a shadow.

Though it is merely deleting a single line of a name, doubts such as i''can' or 'will it be okay?' strech out like a shadow.

Merely erasing a single line of a name gives rise to doubts-'I can't' 'Will it work?'-that loom over me like an endless shadow.

 

'혹시나' 하는 마음을 버리고 난 뒤에 나는 어떻게 되는 거지?

After I let go of the 'what if' thought, what will happen to me?

After abandoning the thought of 'what if' 'what will become of me?'

Once i cast aside the lingering 'what if' 'what kind of person will I turn into?

 

확실한 건 지우고 난 뒤의 나와 그 이전의 나는 다른 사람일 것이다. 

One thing is sure; after I erase it, I will be a different person from before.

What is certain is that the person I become after erasing will not be the same as the one before.

 

우선 치우고, 버리고, 세탁을 하자.

Let's first clean up, throw things away, and do the laundry.

First of all, let's tidy up, get rid of what i don't need, and wash the laundry.

To begin with, let me put things in order, discard what unnecessary, and take care of the laudary.